My boyfriend is Erick De Chavez, who I met at a London Pride (3rd July 2004). When I first saw him I was “wow who is that”… he just had these tiny little denim shorts, cute smile and amazing abs. We started hanging out together, 1 month later we were boyfriends. Click Here to see the first photo I ever took of him at London Pride.
Hobbies of mine include
gym, cycling, wrestling and running
with my dog. I also enjoy photography and video editing, so
maintaining this web site also takes up a lot of my spare time.
When I lived in Bristol I played rugby union for 8 years, then
once I moved to London in 2005 I started playing Rugby League
(which is a summer sport from May - August) as well as the Rugby
Union (a winter sport from September - April), so now play all
year round. Playing back row, number 8 is my preferred position
My education after leaving Chewton Mendip Primary school, was at Wells Blue School, then to The Kings of Wessex School in Cheddar. After leaving high school, I took a 3 year National Diploma course in agricultural based business management at Cannington College, near Bridgwater. It was halfway through the course (1993) that I decided to invest a large proportion of my childhood savings into my first PC; this would help me with my studies and also help me learn more about computers. I remember my friends of that time laughing at me because I'd spent a lot of money on a computer system that I didn't know how to use. But unless I bought a computer and taught myself how to use it, I wouldn’t be where I am today.
After getting my National Diploma I went
on to work as a herdsman for a year at a farm in
At 20 years old my computer knowledge was getting much better. I wasn’t really ever into playing games, I use to just spend all of my spare time learning about how it operates. The long hours and lack of civilisation in farming eventually made me decide to give it up and move to Bristol, to work as a computer salesman for business's. I really enjoyed the change in the winter months but missed the fresh, outdoor lifestyle during the summer. However a much better career choice and moved up the career ladder quite quick.
In March 1997 (when I was just 20 years
old) I took out a mortgage and bought a 2 bedroom house near the
I work as the managing director of my own media and I.T. business Manworthy Media, along with my second job (although I wouldn’t really call it real work) of property investment. I also have several adult web sites that generate a small amount of money, plus I work freelance for various publications such as Bent Magazine supplying event photos, organising model shoots, editing images, writing reviews and articles etc. Another job or hobbie is running a go-go dance agency, supplying go-go boys, drag queens and male strippers to various nightclubs and events across the UK and sometimes even internationally.
Ever since I was a child I’ve always had
my own dog. My last dog “Will” was a black
I suffer from a deformity of the chest wall in which there is an outward bowing of the sternum. One of the main reason that made me start going to the gym when I was 21 was to get bigger chest muscles as it hides the deformity. As a child I was very self conscious of it and never took my shirt off or walked around topless. I use to hate swimming lessons and taking group showers at school because of the abnormal look of my chest and the teasing I got from my classmates. Most people have a little concave bit in the centre of their chest, while mine points right out and is called a “pigeon chest” or Pectus Carinatum. Although I really enjoy going to the gym, it is also done to help hide my pigeon chest. The chest muscles either side of the lump take away the odd appearance. It doesn’t bother me anymore.
Here's a few photos from my childhood years, click on them for a better look...
I suppose looking back through my life I've always known I was gay but it was hard to accept at first. When I was younger I would have done anything to be straight and "normal" because I was brought up in a society, as I'm sure a lot of people are, to think that you would automatically be heterosexual. Not being taught about gay issues or how to deal with a gay lifestyle is difficult and leaves you very troubled and lonely. Living in the countryside didn't help with the issue either, as rural life is still very traditional in its own sort of way. As I got older I realised that I fancied the boys instead of the girls, and couldn't understand why, and didn't know what to do. I'm not close to my parents, so didn't have anyone I felt comfortable to be able to talk to. I just bottled it up inside me and kept it to myself.
As a very young child I was closer to my mum. I was never really that close to my dad, especially as I reached my teenage years, if anything I was sort of frightened of him. He was the one that disciplined me, sometime occasionally whipping me with a horse whip when I'd done something wrong. Ok it was only lightly, but it was enough to remember him as my enemy rather than a loving father. He didn't speak much to me either, unless it was to tell me off. Its strange how small things like that stick in your mind. When I left home at 16 to go to college, my parents seemed glad to get rid of me. I will always remember the weekend I’d spent 4 hours cycling from my college to go home and my mum turned around to me and said ”what are you doing back here, we are paying for your college accommodation, your not welcome here anymore”. It was upsetting, at 16 yes your an adult, but that doesn't mean you don't need your parents support and love. Its something that should be a life long thing in the ideal world.
OK I wasn't a perfect child, but don't consider myself any worse than an average teenage boy. I've also got an older sister, and she could never do anything wrong in my dads eyes. She was always that one step better than me; my dad would do anything for her and it gave me the feeling that I was the son that they never wanted. In my younger teenage years I use to get so depressed that I often used to think about ways to commit suicide. It was only the love of my dog that stopped me, looking back now I'm so glad that I didn't, life has so much more to offer. If there's one thing in the world that I could change about my life, if I could, it would be to have genuine loving parents that I was close to. I now live life to the full and learnt that being gay is not an obstacle but something to be proud of, with many fantastic opportunities and advantages. If I was to be born again I’d want to be gay again.
When at college, I did the done thing and slept with a girl for the first time. I remember getting an erection with the excitement of being touched, but couldn't get sexually aroused by the female body, nor could I go the full way without fantasizing about being with a man while I was with her. By the time I reached 18, I was getting really desperate to make contact with another gay guy and find out what it was like to hold a man in my arms. I wasn't interested in intercourse, just to sexually touch and play with another man. The internet back in those days wasn't available like it is today. The first contact I made was through a gay chat-&-date phone line. When I first rang it I was really nervous yet excited to actually hear the voice of another gay person. It wasn't long before a local man who was on the line invited me round to his home.
I drove round and remember being extremely tense and cautious. As I approached his house, he opened the door and invited me in. After making a cup of tea, we sat on the sofa together and he put on a porno film. I was really wide eyed by it, as I'd never seen a gay porn film before. After a while he reached across and put his hand on my leg. "Is that okay?" he asked, "Yeah", I replied, pretending I hadn't noticed. I had a huge heat surge through my body and my heart was beating furiously. The rest I'll leave to your imagination, but just remember if your reading this, being gay isn't about liking anal sex its about loving being with someone of the same sex. The world is a diverse place and being gay is not an issue any more here in the UK. After all you can't change your sexuality, just be who you are and enjoy your life to the full, you only live once!